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Suicide isn't only the victim's fault, maybe it's yours too.


It's so difficult understanding why people think suicide is stupid. Why people think we can all fight and hence, we should fight.
Of course we should but what if the person is not capable to think they can, what if you made them think they can't? 
What if something you think was fun or something you think can't possibly harm someone, did harm them?
What if your words were like few drops on the brimming water in that person's difficulty bucket? 
What if I told you, your words which weren't supposed to hurt "that much" made the water spill, made the several problems which were contained and were being concealed in the bottom, are now spilled and are going to create a flood in that person's heart and mind and soul.
Was it really ONLY that person's fault? Did you never do anything?

Now think, what if you would have said something sweet? Of course it can't make the problem level down from the brim but at least you could have contributed to the container which should be filled with happiness, which should be the only one to spill but you did not. Why? Because you thought a single moment of joy by laughing on someone can bring you happiness and obviously, that can't hurt the other person because how can it? It wasn't the truth. Have you ever thought about the fact that maybe people like you who comment that person, make fun of them, make them feel bad about themselves might have actually made the person believe the lies you forced on them. Maybe you have never noticed but you've filled their brains with negative thoughts, made them feed on the bad memories because you never realised you never gave them the happy ones, or maybe you did once or twice but they were never stronger than the ones which gave them nightmares.
What's the fun in hurting someone? What makes you think you can be happy by accepting the fact that dying was this person's fault and was never yours? How can you believe that how ruined this person's life now or was, never had your hand in it. Regardless of how big or small of the trouble you gave them, you will always be one of the reason why that person was or is lost, why that person always fails or failed to trust people or themselves as a matter of fact. Why that person took such a big decision to die or do drugs or stay drunk the whole time.
Few days ago, I read about a suicide case, a boy killed himself and before that he posted some pictures from the top of Hotel Taj with a bottle of alcohol in his hand. I read the comments "He was a fucking stoner" "a rich kid who used to stay high all the time I feel bad for his mom only, otherwise he actually did deserved to die" I cried for more than some 15 minutes and realised I didn't even knew the guy but it still hurt that someone who wasn't even grown enough, took a step to end his life before really beginning to live. I wondered what if I killed myself when I was alone, when I had a blade in my hand and it all felt dark "She was only a slut, high on her attitude the bitch deserved it. What a coward!" Might have been the words on my timeline as well. Were they true? For them, maybe but for real? They never were, they never will. Don't you think it's too easy to judge someone? Do you think money can help a person through depression? Maybe that guy started doing drugs and alcohol because he believed when people said it takes the pain away. Maybe it didn't, so he tried and tried and kept trying. Or maybe it did worked a little and the guy finally had the courage to do something for himself, if not live, he decided to die. Maybe you thought not understanding and making a judgement about him and all the others like him is easier than being there for those who are fighting to themselves to live and to try to stay alive and make it all better. Maybe you could have saved them but you never did.
A selfish deed that you might have done to "fit-in" could be or was a reason someone died. Can you justify it by thinking and telling yourself that you never did it intentionally? Of course you can, but will that save the person? Will that save you from doing what you did? You know the answer already. Maybe you did never realized what it could do, maybe you really never ever meant to do it, maybe you never knew the consequences will be this. What can you do now? How will you make the guilt go away? You can't bring the person back but you can save someone else. How difficult is it? Listen to what they say, smile when they try to make a joke, try to make them laugh say something sweet and never ever bully them. Stay with them if not always at least for some time, if not sweet at least not bitter. Who knows you might find a friend or a lover or a saviour in the quest to save someone else you might save yourself.
Please try and see how it feels, it brings a greater joy that bullying someone. Pay for it by doing something good because you already know you have to pay. Do it by bringing happiness to someone's life. Please.

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