How it feels to be someone who want to fall in love, but can't.

This is my special note to all those brave hearts, who lie to the world and to themselves too. To those who cry inside but outside, they smile. To the one who tell the world love sucks, but inside they need it too and the problem is they can't.

Just like you, I had those sleepless nights too. I used to cry till my brain forces my eyes to shut, and I used to try to keep them open for few more minutes, so I could let the pain out, so I could cry some more. 

It’s difficult to make others understand what we feel, for them we are retards, who at one moment says love is shit and in another, we are crying for not having it. I know you are difficult, and you need someone to fix you, someone who won't just fill up your wounds but will treat them, heal them and cure you. You need someone to love you honestly, but you are afraid. Don't be.

You have to let yourself take a chance, I know you are afraid, but you shouldn't let yourself burn. Let someone in, let someone extinguish this fire that you've build inside your soul.

You are hurt, is in pain and you are scared to let someone in, because you fear they might end up breaking the only thing that makes you going. 

You are strong, bold and happy outside, inside too but still isn't in peace, why? Because you feel that vacant space, the space which you are afraid to fill.

What if no one loves me? What if he is just another guy who has come to break me? But, what if he/she loves you? What if this person is the one?

Please don't tell yourself "I can live alone" if it is the reason behind your pain. Living alone is just a cure, a way for you to be happy and not everyone's happiness lies in being alone, some really need to be in love and love isn't bad. 

If you think someone loves you and you can love them too, just give this person a chance. I know there's a chaos going inside of you. Just give this a chance, if things go wrong, take this as a learning experience, and yes it’s easy to say and difficult to do, but trust me today with you, I'm gonna give one more chance to love too. 

If we falls down to zero, we'll fall together, we'll learn something and if it goes well... it's good, right?

Just find someone good, someone who can genuinely love you. Once you find this person, don't think just say yes. Live. It'll be difficult in the beginning but as the time will pass, you are gonna be one happy person. And yes, don't forget to smile.

Keep spreading smiles and you smile yourself too. :)